emo moments

well, here come one of my emo moments haha... Its being one month plus two since my life hit rock bottom... That time is the first time i felt so devasted since i was borned... People used to say " good things always come in pair hao si chen shuang" well for me, " bad things come in 3". I was ditched, down with dengue, stock market crash. Better not to tok too much abt the past and move on.

After one months plus to 2 month... i sort of like come to term with it. Well, I guess as time goes by, wounds will heal by itself... THink without her, i live a healthier lifestyle haha.... every week exercise around 3 times and manage to shed some weight(which is continued from when i fell sick).....Guess its fated ba... whats urs is urs, no point keeping wats not urs... There always someone out there more suitable for one another. Its only through ups and downs that one learn to become stronger, in case its true. At least i learned my lesson from my failed relationship. Once a relationship turns sour, there realli no point in pointing fingers at whose fault it is. It takes two hands to clap.... So i believe there should not be any right or wrong in a relationship... At least now i am able to find someone who is more suitable for my character. Also, its better to be able to accept someone as who he/she is instead of moulding him/her into someone in ur mind. Also, i have a clearer picture of what type of girls are more suitable for me as compared to last time.

Guess its realli hurt me deeply at first ba coz its the first time someone realli betray my trust!!! Its actually very sad to have someone u very close with for 6 yrs plus to like backstab u( i not like blaming anythn here).... well i guess as time goes by, the wound will heal by itself ba... come to think of it, i felt quite stupid trying to win back a lost heart... but i was at a lost the other time...well, i also felt quite stupid trying to change myself so as to suit her... haiz... if only i had been stronger..... but i guess i will be stronger from now on. Think the last few months, my confidence level realli hit rock bottom....

Anyway, i would like to thanks my friends for helping me get through my rock bottom period. Also thanks xh whom i know recently for giving me new perception into things, willing to like go out with me and for saying things to boost my confidence. i getting pass my emo period ba just need more time for it to stablise.